I don’t know where to start.
I still feel nothing but pain.
I still want to randomly cry.
I started praying today and something said “depression fills your head with lies.”
Lately I have felt like some of the people most important to me can’t stand me and don’t want me around anymore.
I have felt so much self hatred. I have felt so lost.
I want to believe those are lies.
I don’t know if this goes back to my dad leaving me but I have such terrible abandonment issues. I’m so scared that everyone I love will eventually give up on me or get fed up with me and leave. I’m scared their love is fleeting and will fade.
I’m tired of feeling like that.
I know we will all hurt each other at some point but my fear of being left is terrible.
I’m messing up and disappointing people so much lately.
I’m tired of it.
I want to feel something again. Something other than pain.
I’m sorry to anyone I have hurt or made concerned. I’m sorry for being difficult and stupid.
I feel like I’m finally getting everything together and then I fall right back where I started and I don’t know how I get there. I need help.
I’m scared and anxious.
I’m sorry for being a hypocrite and for not using my faith to trust God.
I’m sorry for being so deeply sad that it may drain you.
Trust me. I don’t want this sadness.
Some may say it’s a choice and that can be true for others.
But sometimes there are people who get so lost in it and try to choose to be happy and that is so terribly hard when you can’t feel anything but pain.
And I’m not talking about just a little pain that goes away after a week.
The pain some feel is so deep and so excruciating that it feels like it turns your insides upside down. It’s not a cry for a little while and get over it. It’s a fall to the ground crying and grabbing your stomach and chest because it’s physically hurting you and stealing your breath. A real emptiness. Hollow inside your rib cage.
I can’t do this anymore. Please help me.
I don’t even know what to pray. I just know I want to surrender everything.
I don’t get how people can take their Catholic faith so casually. LIKE GUYS.
THAT’S JESUS THAT’S ON THE ALTAR AND IN THE CONFESSIONAL.
AND JESUS’ MOTHER WANTS TO PRAY FOR US AND WANTS US TO BE HER CHILDREN TOO.
AND THE POPE IS THE DIRECT SUCCESSOR OF PETER.
AND LOOK AT ALL THE SAINTS WE GET TO BE A PART OF HISTORY WITH WHO ARE ALWAYS CHEERING US ON.
AND WE ARE IN COMMUNION WITH ALL THE OTHER CATHOLICS IN THE WORLD AND HEAVEN DURING MASS.
i dont understand why guys wont buy tampons because:
- NO one thinks theyre for you
- actually everyone thinks youre the sweetest person ever and there is a 103% chance i will date u
- nobody thinks theyre for you calm the fuck down
4. they’ll probably assume you have a girlfriend